A deal

I remember the deal,

it was a deal that gonna make it before my 21st birthday.

Yet, actually i achieve it.

And, it not a game. Never think of it was.
I'm the winner on that deal, but I'm still a loser too, lose to the god of time.

Since i drop into it, it's deeper and deeper, everyday.

I thought I'll handle it but no.

I thought it'll be the normal but no.

I thought it'll be happiness but actually only get half.

So, that night, I make a wish that maybe never come true.

While it getting happiness but still hiding the sorrow.

Live in afraid status.