A deal

I remember the deal,

it was a deal that gonna make it before my 21st birthday.

Yet, actually i achieve it.

And, it not a game. Never think of it was.
I'm the winner on that deal, but I'm still a loser too, lose to the god of time.

Since i drop into it, it's deeper and deeper, everyday.

I thought I'll handle it but no.

I thought it'll be the normal but no.

I thought it'll be happiness but actually only get half.

So, that night, I make a wish that maybe never come true.

While it getting happiness but still hiding the sorrow.

Live in afraid status.

No reason

No reason, No why.
That is the way I like.

Without the reason, so I love all of it.
This is the way I like.

Untouchable

 Taylor Swift - Untouchable

Untouchable like a distant diamond sky
I'm reaching out and I just can't tell you why
I'm caught up in you, I'm caught up in you

Untouchable, burning brighter than the sun
And when you're close, I feel like coming undone

In the middle of the night when I'm in this dream
It's like a million little stars spelling out your name
You gotta come on, come on, say that we'll be together
Come on, come on, little taste of heaven

It's half full and I won't wait here all day
I know you're saying that you'd be here anyway
But you're untouchable, burning brighter than the sun
Now that you're close, I feel like coming undone

In the middle of the night when I'm in this dream
It's like a million little stars spelling out your name
You gotta come on, come on, say that we'll be together
Come on, come on, oh

In the middle of the night waking from this dream
I wanna feel you by my side, standing next to me
You gotta come on, come on, say that we'll be together
Come on, come on, little taste of heaven

I'm caught up in you
Oh, oh, oh

But your untouchable, burning brighter than the sun
Now that you're close, I feel like coming undone

In the middle of the night when I'm in this dream
It's like a million little stars spelling out your name
You gotta come on, come on, say that we'll be together
Come on, come on, oh

In the middle of the night when I'm in this dream
It's like a million little stars spelling out your name
You gotta come on, come on, say that we'll be together
Come on, come on, come on

In the middle of the night waking from this dream
I wanna feel you by my side, standing next to me
You gotta come on, come on, say that we'll be together
Come on, come on, little taste of heaven

And in the middle of the night when I'm in this dream
It's like a million little stars spelling out your name
You gotta come on, come on, come on, come on
Come on, come on, oh, oh, oh

Like a million little stars spelling out your name
They're spelling out your name, oh

Thought it's will be like this.

When in the midnight,

 Look at the ceiling, holding the pillow.

A thousand minded in my brain,

keep on thinking.

Insomnia.

Been habits, by my side.

After

以後的以後

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想起那個

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