S.e.l.f.i.s.h

=Selfishness=

Who'll be able to stay calm and act like nothing.
It was easy to be indecisive.

useless again.

Hate that song and those pic.

No doubt

"No doubt"

So that mean i should not suspect.

but what about my 6 sense?

Ignore it and kill it.

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Alright, I have NO and MORE idea what am I gonna to do with the preparing graduate's of XXX. Stuck on it.

Count on me again? How the HOLLY sucks again

Keep on stuck stuck stuck~

stuck to fuck

Difficult

…
算过了,
每个星期…
…

一定会不断重复

是有那么多,一直一直地
所以那是代表
My fault

道路

對別人來說那是個很荒唐而沒意義的事，

但對我來說那是忠於自己心裡所想的而做

即使本來就是個很叛逆和固執的個性，但還是會分輕重而決定每個事情，沒有"隨便"及"任性"的。

并不是因為別人所想好的步驟然後就要繼續一步接一步，

看厭了那所謂"設定"好的道路，爲了那不值錢的面子與榮譽而繼續，值得嗎?

活在大眾裡頭還是自我世界，各有各想法

最重要的是 對得起自己就好

別人怎麼想都好，

那只是"他們"想而已，

重要的是"我們"想。

幾句話就可以把所有的正常言論搬出來的，

反駁一切，

那只是接受不到而繼續延續那道路的人。

不一樣

想的，講的，做的
都會是不一樣的

所以還是一樣
繼續等待

Feb's memo

This is encrypted: Feb's memo

travel

I do like to travel, but money is needed.

I do like to do sport, but times is needed.

I wanted my leg could walk many places, my eyes to see many things, my hand to touch and feel many things.

So I love to being a backpacker.

Just like someone.

I just wanted to go out play!

Doubt

Who am I?

The one at that place, there or here?

Who I am?

I felt lost again.

Which one are the true?

Am I still living?

Been forgotten, felt lost.

What is the target on the 1st?

Does it mean broke?

Failure

So, It was my fault?
Can't do anything and say anything, even can't accompany with you.

Failure.

Don't wanna see you with that face.

Said

Said, been poisoned.
Deep and hard to cure.

Said, hold it tight and never let go.
Warm and soft.

Said, wake up and open the eyes, felt like still in dreaming.
Kind of complicated feel.

Said, still not yet open my heart to let others go through.
Actually I'm trying and give me some times.

Said, L... really is complicated and hard.
Totally agreed it, never try it, never knew the feel.

I said.....

Change the new life.

A deal

I remember the deal,

it was a deal that gonna make it before my 21st birthday.

Yet, actually i achieve it.

And, it not a game. Never think of it was.
I'm the winner on that deal, but I'm still a loser too, lose to the god of time.

Since i drop into it, it's deeper and deeper, everyday.

I thought I'll handle it but no.

I thought it'll be the normal but no.

I thought it'll be happiness but actually only get half.

So, that night, I make a wish that maybe never come true.

While it getting happiness but still hiding the sorrow.

Live in afraid status.

No reason

No reason, No why.
That is the way I like.

Without the reason, so I love all of it.
This is the way I like.

Untouchable

 Taylor Swift - Untouchable

Untouchable like a distant diamond sky
I'm reaching out and I just can't tell you why
I'm caught up in you, I'm caught up in you

Untouchable, burning brighter than the sun
And when you're close, I feel like coming undone

In the middle of the night when I'm in this dream
It's like a million little stars spelling out your name
You gotta come on, come on, say that we'll be together
Come on, come on, little taste of heaven

It's half full and I won't wait here all day
I know you're saying that you'd be here anyway
But you're untouchable, burning brighter than the sun
Now that you're close, I feel like coming undone

In the middle of the night when I'm in this dream
It's like a million little stars spelling out your name
You gotta come on, come on, say that we'll be together
Come on, come on, oh

In the middle of the night waking from this dream
I wanna feel you by my side, standing next to me
You gotta come on, come on, say that we'll be together
Come on, come on, little taste of heaven

I'm caught up in you
Oh, oh, oh

But your untouchable, burning brighter than the sun
Now that you're close, I feel like coming undone

In the middle of the night when I'm in this dream
It's like a million little stars spelling out your name
You gotta come on, come on, say that we'll be together
Come on, come on, oh

In the middle of the night when I'm in this dream
It's like a million little stars spelling out your name
You gotta come on, come on, say that we'll be together
Come on, come on, come on

In the middle of the night waking from this dream
I wanna feel you by my side, standing next to me
You gotta come on, come on, say that we'll be together
Come on, come on, little taste of heaven

And in the middle of the night when I'm in this dream
It's like a million little stars spelling out your name
You gotta come on, come on, come on, come on
Come on, come on, oh, oh, oh

Like a million little stars spelling out your name
They're spelling out your name, oh

Thought it's will be like this.

When in the midnight,

 Look at the ceiling, holding the pillow.

A thousand minded in my brain,

keep on thinking.

Insomnia.

Been habits, by my side.

After

以後的以後

養一隻貓

養一隻狗

當做是懷念那回憶中的那個

想起那個

已經看不清以後了，只好很頹敗地感覺那"失"感

No way

可以不要嗎？

我真他媽的固執，就是不想放

決定…. 幾時？

我很想……………

應該想什麽辦法才行

Where is the "To be continue"?

RE

It's was a past,
Never get RE for everything.

Sound like today is a joke, as i wish it was.
but NO.

It'll be the last time.
Good Bye.

壓力

你說 很多壓力 來自他們,自己還有她
你說 不要管他們說的話 可是你卻還是很在意

那怎麼樣?
那個她就是那麼的魯莽, 不講理, 不理別人感受, 只有錢是最大, 愛面子, 永遠都不滿足

我以後也會變成你那樣嗎?

你說 我從小就很獨立
那是從小就被訓練出來的獨立

生活上是沒有她
不能依靠, 自己想辦法解決

現在, 也是一樣


我以後真的會變成你那樣嗎?
不想變成你或她...

白。癡

Hint : Hurt x ?

變

這個新年，我想你也是第一次在天上過新年哦，應該不錯吧

啊~又是一句自我安慰的話

可是我真的很想你，很想念你的笑聲

我...

這新年，已經變了

.......

別傻啦，就這樣繼續吧

那無止看不到前方的路

越走越裏面，離光越遠

現在的現在，
我真的不配了

以後的以後，

應該會很失望

對不起

...

還能怎樣?

慢慢收起來吧

慢慢減少

然後結束

。


這是我新年第一個願望
結束后就是普普通通的
永遠

就這樣，不改變